I’ve come to discover in the passing of time, that I, no matter how much I tend to love someone, uphold myself at a certain distance for a strange reason unfamiliar to me. I obstruct they way in of others, create this permanent, indestructible barrier. No, vulnerability isn’t my thing, exposing myself to others, susceptibility, those would be several of my major qualms, divulging one’s weaknesses, and just letting people know, is terrifying for me and no, I don’t understand the reason of this being, i think it may be fear of betrayal, those betrayals that leave profound wounds those in which you find the path of recovery less than clear. Perhaps, I don’t know. maybe it has to do with the invasion of individual space, coming to think about most of us have this disease, the "do not enter" disease, but one thing I know for sure . That at the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we actually desire is to be close to someone or something. So this façade where we all stay distant and act as if we didn’t care about each other, it's more often than not, a load of bull. So we make a decision and choose who we want to hang about with, and once we've selected those people, we are likely to remain close by, despite of how profoundly we hurt them or they hurt us. The people that are still there when everything has gone down the drain, those are the ones worth keeping. Yeah, every now and then close can be excessively close. But sometimes, that “invasion of individual space”, it can be precisely what you need!
